Monday, March 07, 2011!
HandWritten on; 11:59 PM
so is this what i get after i really studied/write down notes/ tried my best to memorise for days? somehow its never enough. my brain's never enough. the capacity is never enough to hold all your information and all your drug names, mechanisms of actions. i am never good enough for this course, or the fact says i did not belong here, does not belong here now, and never will be. it is just that its way too late now for me to do anything but to conform to the norm and the rigour like what is well expected of me, cause i fking cant do a single thing about it. somehow deep down inside me i know i am good enough. i am good enough, this course is not good enough for me, not the other way round. i definitely should be at somewhere else. somewhere else will be good enough for me, and i will be good enough for that somewhere. this really is not the simple kinda 'ah i shld have chosen another course', it is what i have been thinking for the past 3, almost 4 sems, and what i will be thinking for the next two years to come, perhaps the truest thing my heart have and will ever tell me, something i ignored and now suffer the consequences.
